precisely mine

some words of a lit student

precisely mine

some words of a lit student

Years had passed,the mad man's case has been solved . The police declared that they had solved the case and when they became aware of his madness and realized what he was capable of, they decided to keep him in hospital in an isolated room .at first he had so many visitors,some of them were acquaintances ,some were fans but none of them were me for I didn't have the courage to face him .now that I'm dying to see him I can't because he killed himself in the first year of his being in jail,the police never revealed the truth about his death and they didn't show us his corpse for that I understood that it was so bad that they were afraid of the impact it would have on other's minds .after all those years the thought of him never left me. I thought about him when I was alone when I did the households. I thought about him when I whatched our child's playing. When our child started to ask about him there was nothing I could explain for him expect telling him that he died in a war and I told him how great he was !!I was scared to death because as our child grew older he became more alike of his father,one day I caught him burring a dead mouse which he revealed later that he killed the mouse because his noise teased him.another time the manager of his school wanted me and told me that he put his fingers in his classmate's eyes because he wanted to see how does it feel to touch someone's eyes. I didn't know what to do until one day I decided to tell him the truth about my mad man I told him how we fell in love in first sight,how it felt good to hold his hands and be in his arms I told him how nice everything was until I saw him hitting our young neighbor who had crush on me I told him how he was bleeding and how he was breathing in that moment I thought I didn't know my beloved .that was the first sign of his madness he did so many horrible things that I couldn't even explain them to my son. I told him about our break up and how I left him without letting him know that I was pregnant because I was scared that he would hurt my baby with the things he do due to his madness. The first thing that my son asked was"Where is he now?and please don't tell me that he was martyred in a war and his soul is in peace and we lived happily ever after. "I couldn't hide the truth anymore so I read aloud him the letter he had left for me the day befor the event. "Dear Sara I don't want to say how are you because I know you won't reply me so I tell you how I am instead. I feel great i feel amazing ive never had this feeling.Remember you always told me that I'm mad guess what it turns out that I wasn't mad and it was just the overacuteness of my sences you think that I didnt know that you were pregnant but I knew it perfectly because I knew how deep you were in love with me and you never even mention leaving me although I knew you were in pain .so I searched a lot after you left me and I realized that you were pregnant.

Dear beloved ,I still love you and i know that you do to.I still think about you and your hair when you leave them in the wind and let the wind stir it. I remember your eyes how black they were you said you don't love them but I could die for those beautiful creatures which give me the reason to live.

Dear beloved, I think I'm betraying you and I wanted to confess that these days I'm thinking about another eyes which are not yours the eye of an old man has got  all my attention .I feel I have to get rid of  them .I'm so sad that it's always in my mind instead of your eyes I think that's why I need to kill him and make him blind or maybe it's not the reason .I never confessed for myself and I won't but I'm telling you that the reason that I watch the old man every night that I think abou this exact plan for killing him is you. I want to think about your eyes not his .in the mean time I'm thinking about our baby's eyes it should be black as yours or it shouldn't. Because your eyes are just yours I really want to see you but first I should kill the man and get rid of his eye then i come and prove you that I wouldn't hurt our baby im gonna be the geatest dad that has ever been in this planet I want to look at your eyes and don't care about anything else in the world. 

sincerely your lover

After finishing the letter,while we were crying in each other's arms I was thinking about the obscure future that was holding for my little mad man...

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First of all, you have to get yourself in a real nasty fight with a really short tempered criminal in the commissary and make some real mess. Then, you have to be pretty sneaky and grab his spoon and pretend like the fight has never happened and keep it cool for the rest of the day.

Then, you must wait for the night and then start digging the floor. When you see you have enough dirt on the ground, accumulate it all and try to make a stair to reach the skylight. And for breaking the window , you must simply take your shirt off, twist it around your wrist and then punch the window to break it. And that's the way out.

  • You'd better be quick! 
۱ نظر موافقین ۱ مخالفین ۰ ۰۶ آذر ۹۶ ، ۲۳:۳۵
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Last Monday when we were waiting for our class ,our lecturer came and told us with such an appalling voice that today class is so important and everyone should be present.we were frightened enough because of asking the questions from the vocabularies and this news horrified us more.so there we were waiting and shaking for our vague future until he came and told us that we're going to visit the central library!!!.I became so ecstatic. But since there's always something to ruin my happiness ,I was informed that we should walk to get there.We followed him like little kids which reminded me of how we used to play HooHooChiChi!Finally there we got. At first I was surprised to see the size of the building and the great location it had.i cursed my laziness and the stairs that didn't allow me to come here sooner.As we entered ,the first thing that got my attention was the man  reading some newspaper. And I wondered how active a person can be to go up all these stairs for just reading some newspaper. The benign staff interrupted my thinking by stating the rules which one was staying silent,the one I'm not capable of.!!First she took us to the main section in which there were thousands  of different books.The Latin section got my attention first.I was full of joy to see that I was in the middle of my dream about having so many English books that wouldn't be finished until the last day of my life but  again my happiness didn't last long until I realized I don't own all these books and I must pass all those stairs to reach here.meanwhile Our leader called us to follow her to another floor which  we couldn't borrow books and we could just look at them and regret about not having them!Next section was about PHD's articles which of course couldn't be handy for some English termaks!Another nice staff talked a bit which unfortunately I didn't understand a word of it because I was thinking whether they have people magazin or not.The only thing I got was that we can't borrow anything from this part and we can only have access to it through the computers.The last part was the one I had been waiting from the first moment we got there.The kids' section which it's door was closed  fortunately and we had to go from a shortcut which the shortcut had what I want "water" of course it was for the professors but I don't see any problem with a student drinking water from that  of a professor's.I couldn't control myself there.All I wanted to do was shouting which of course I held myself to not to do so and just headed to the workbooks that some cuties painted them .it was hillarious to see their works and how incorrectly they wrote some bad words about  other kids.meanwhile I looked at  my male classmates, empty of emotions and I wondered how apathetic men can be in these situations.Anyway,our leader told us to finish our fantasizing and go back to the main section and borrow any book. So I headed to a computer and searched for a book.Finally I found the book and wrote its information on my Palm then I showed it to someone and he laughed about where I wrote it which I didn't find it funny at all.so I asked my friend and that kind girl searched a lot to find the book and after so much great efforts i finally borrowed the book then I went to pick up my bag and I got pressed in the door,thanks to one of the staffs.Our visit finished and my happiness about having that book was ruined again  when our professor informed us that we must write an essay about our visit.


۰ نظر موافقین ۰ مخالفین ۰ ۱۳ آبان ۹۶ ، ۱۸:۳۷
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Paraphrase:

Wallace is composing a letter to Maeve in which he states that everything is excellent there but he still wants to return to the small city, Samson because he assumes that the small city may bring him good fortune.

Flapjack interrupts Wallace and reminds him that it's what he wanted, then he throws the black full gun which has short barrels and has been used frequently on the coffee table. Wallace moves the gun slowly and picks up the letter which was beneath it and puts the letter in his pocket. Afterwards he lies in a couch and begins smoking a cigarette.

Flapjack asks Wallace not to change his mind about what he said. Then he sits in a chair near him with a cigarette but without using it and just tapping it on his knee. Flapjack has always been such emotional and with full of excitment.Wallace bends over the table, while he's carful with his lame leg and grinds his cigarette in a blue saucer.

Wallace tells flapjack that he didn't mention that he doesn't want to do what he was supposed to with a quiet and smooth ton. He intentionally didn't  look at Wallace 's face whom has so much excitement about this job that makes Wallace uneasy.

Wallace leaves for the kitchen while flapjack is explaining that he thought he wanted to back out.

Wallace calmly says that he would see him at eleven-thirty with a death-like voice.as flapjack hears him, he gets up and leaves there.

Wallace comes back to the living room as he sees that flapjack is gone. He gazes the black dirty gun. He's wondering about his stage in life. He feels bad about everything he has lost in his life. His left was hurt in the war, his Maeve left him and the point that he was an orphan black made him feel bad. And there he was with a twitching knee and waits for a robbery with flapjack because he hasn't paid his rents for months and the deadline is the next day.

Flapjack comes and Wallace reminds him that he's late. After Wallace sees the high flapjack he hesitates and thinks about going back home and forgets about all of it but suddenly he remembers that he doesn't have money to buy the tickets.

They review their plans and how flapjack has to keep people away. And that they should wait for people to leave.

There they are.11:30. At the small store. Flapjack is reading a magazine in its section. Wallace Is at the baby foods section. And three other guys including a cop,Leroy and a fat black lady who is talking about the price of a can of  tomato.

The lady tells Leroy that ten dollars for a can of tomato is so much and Leroy asks her to look at other things because he wants to close the shop in ten minutes. Meanwhile the police leaves and Wallace breathes calmly.

Wallace is staring at the leroy whom has a wife and a girlfriend and is rich enough to wear two gold rings but is still increasing the prices. he finds that flapjack isn't there and the lady is still looking at materials.

Wallace goes mad about how the lady is doing slowly so he just starts the mission and askes Leroy to put his hands on the desk and asks the lady to leave or she may die. The lady leaves the store while hitting some materials and she takes three can of tomato at the last moment.

Wallace is disturbed on how in difference Leroy is to his actions. He asks him to give the money and while Leroy is putting the money into a bag he tells Wallace that he understood from the very first moment he came that he would do something not good and continues with telling him that if he were his daddy, things would be different.

In a moment Wallace forgets the whole things he forgets the fact that Leroy was just a black guy and just shots him.

The story changed now things were different. he might be able to pay the rent and finds some job but he wouldn't be the same Wallace anymore.

He comes back to his house, sitting on the chair and smoking cigarette when flapjack calls. Wallace tells him that things didn't go well so he can just give him twenty. 

At the end he continues his letter. he tells Maeve that things are different now and that he doesn't want to go back anymore and he thinks that he'll always be a city boy.

Summery:

Wallace is composing a letter to Maeve in which he states that everything is excellent there but he still wants to return to the small city, Samson because he assumes that the small city may bring him good fortune.

Flapjack interrupts Wallace and reminds him that it's what he wanted, then he throws the black full gun which has short barrels and has been used frequently on the coffee table. Wallace moves the gun slowly and picks up the letter which was beneath it and puts the letter in his pocket. Afterwards he lies in a couch and begins smoking a cigarette.

Flapjack asks Wallace not to change his mind about what he said. Then he sits in a chair near him with a cigarette but without using it and just tapping it on his knee. Flapjack has always been such emotional and with full of excitment.Wallace bends over the table, while he's carful with his lame leg and grinds his cigarette in a blue saucer.

Wallace tells flapjack that he didn't mention that he doesn't want to do what he was supposed to with a quiet and smooth ton. He intentionally didn’t look at Wallace 's face whom has so much excitement about this job that makes Wallace uneasy.

Wallace leaves for the kitchen while flapjack is explaining that he thought he wanted to back out.

Wallace calmly says that he would see him at eleven-thirty with a death-like voice.as flapjack hears him, he gets up and leaves there.

Wallace comes back to the living room as he sees that flapjack is gone. He gazes the black dirty gun. He's wondering about his stage in life. He feels bad about everything he has lost in his life. His left was hurt in the war, his Maeve left him and the point that he was an orphan black made him feel bad. And there he was with a twitching knee and waits for a robbery with flapjack because he hasn't paid his rents for months and the deadline is the next day.

Flapjack comes and Wallace reminds him that he's late. After Wallace sees the high flapjack he hesitates and thinks about going back home and forgets about all of it but suddenly he remembers that he doesn't have money to buy the tickets.

They review their plans and how flapjack has to keep people away.and that they should wait for people to leave.

There they are.11:30. At the small store. Flapjack is reading a magazine in its section. Wallace Is at the baby foods section. And three other guys including a cop,Leroy and a fat black lady who is talking about the price of a can of  tomato.

The lady tells Leroy that ten dollars for a can of tomato is so much and Leroy asks her to look at other things because he wants to close the shop in ten minutes. Meanwhile the police leaves and Wallace breathes calmly.

Wallace is staring at the leroy whom has a wife and a girlfriend and is rich enough to wear two gold rings but is still increasing the prices. he finds that flapjack isn't there and the lady is still looking at materials.

Wallace goes mad about how the lady is doing slowly so he just starts the mission and askes Leroy to put his hands on the desk and asks the lady to leave or she may die. The lady leaves the store while hitting some materials and she takes three can of tomato at the last moment.

Wallace is disturbed on how in difference Leroy is to his actions. He asks him to give the money and while Leroy is putting the money into a bag he tells Wallace that he understood from the very first moment he came that he would do something not good and continues with telling him that if he were his daddy, things would be different.

In a moment Wallace forgets the whole things he forgets the fact that Leroy was just a black guy and just shots him.

The story changed now things were different. he might be able to pay the rent and finds some job but he wouldn't be the same Wallace anymore.

He comes back to his house, sitting on the chair and smoking cigarette when flapjack calls. Wallace tells him that things didn't go well so he can just give him twenty. 

At the end he continues his letter. he tells Maeve that things are different now and that he doesn't want to go back anymore and he thinks that he'll always be a city boy.

Questions:

#Why does Wallace prefer come back to Samson while he says that things are really great there?

#why does Wallace think that the small city might do him good?

#who is Maeve?

#why did Maeve leave Wallace?

#why does Wallace want to rob?

#Why doesn't Wallace blame Maeve about her left?

#what were their responsibilities during the robbery?

#why does Wallace loose his mind when Leroy tells him that it would be great if he were his dad?

#Where does flapjack go during the robbery?

#why does Wallace change his minds about going back to Samson?

Note:

At the very first of the story Wallace writes for Maeve that in spite of all the great things that exsist,he prefers to return to Samson.

Wallace, a black orphan with an injured knee ,along with flapjack, decides to rob from Leroy's store, a black rich, because he didn't paid for his house and the deadline is near.

Before the robbery he once hesitates and decides not to steal but he remembers that he has no money for doing anything.

Wallace shots the owner of the shop because he reminds him that he's a black orphan and tells him that he would train him well enough if he were his dad.

At the end he continues writing the letter about how he changes his mind about going back to Samson because everything is different now.

Keywords:

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Note:

He is thinking about returning to Samson at first.

We don't know who is Maeve and why he left him.

Wallace is a black orphan with twitching knee.

Wallace wants to rob because of lack of money to pay his rent.

falapjack is late before the robbery.

A cop and a black lady are in the shop.

Leroy is indifference to Wallace.

Wallace shoots Leroy.

He changes his mind about leaving the city.


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       Having dreamed about standing on the very roof of the world,the man was quite aghast.Despite the fact that he has been through a lot of dramatic events which are arduous to bear,he was alive and full of joy and incitement . Not consuming any kinds of food but a bowl of soup and some peanut M&Ms,he was still standing against all the weakness which was trying to let him down. Or with such a little amount of oxygen that's not enough for an infant let alone a grown-up,he wasn't able to feel all the sensation he was supposed to,except the tireness and cold. He had the image of the moment when he reaches the summit and there he was , in the middle of his dream.


  I'll try anything once.what's that anything?does it includes killing yourself?concerning  the fact that every single human in the universe is going to die someday ,taking risk is not that bad  as long as it's not for showing that you're cool and at the same time hurting yourself.we all do take risks in our lives but not the real risks .Bunjee jumping is absolutely an awesome risk but smoking weed to show that you're not a kid anymore is an ultimate foolishness.no one's idea is exactly  same in this case but my idea is to do whatever you think is right .By right I don't mean the litrary meaning because sometimes something is so wrong that it feels so  right.life without risk is worthless and you don't feel what you're     supposed to ... 

۰ نظر موافقین ۰ مخالفین ۰ ۲۷ مهر ۹۶ ، ۱۱:۴۹
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